Wish I'd just fall already!

Do you ever get that feeling. When your driving down the road your going about 75 and a curve comes you just want to keep heading straight! I'm not saying I want to die or kill myself or anything like that but must say I feel like that a lot. I so tried of people! Some people are just so fake and I can't stand it any longer. People that label others is dumb. There's this girl I know she wants to be what she calls "punk"! She has this hole image of what "punk" people should be like. Well she doesn't like to be label because "punk" people don't like to be labeled but isn't that labeling yourself? Also we went to this concert and she said the most stupid thing that I'm with my own kind because all the people looked like what she thinks "punk" people are suppose to. Isn't that labeling them just want to smack her! Enough about her.

I'm not the kind of person that can talk to three or two different guys at the same time but lately it seems like I have. There's three guys in my life right now. Two of them like me but I see them as my big bro. How do you tell a guy that likes you well um I think of you as a brother!? The third one I really like but he doesn't know what he wants. He told me not to fall for him. He calls just for me to come over to make out but that ususally fails. I don't give in easy to guys like him (when I try hard enough). So far nothing has so far but I'm not sure how much longer I can just hold out. I know I should just tell him to go away but thats so hard because what if there is a chance we'd go out. I'm just being stupid and I know that. I hate how it always seems that I fall for the wrong guy. When a good one comes that I know for sure I can trust I look at him like hes my brother. I've been thinking a lot about why this is. Woundered if I want guys that i know i can't have mentally but don't want guys that i can have mentally because it's not as much of a challenge. I'm not sure if that makes sense but oh well!